This will only make sense to one person,

and that one person means the world to me.

I know you're intriqued to read my storied past

I normally would try to cover this up, hide away all my ugly scars

but you make me feel like the most beautiful girl in the room

scars and all

Enjoy the read

Because without all of this, 

I would have never found you

NEVERMIND

Epilogue:

I let you peak inside

All while you pretended to be someone you are not

I can't believe it didn't take you more than a week

to get your dick wet, with her

I've wasted enough time on someone who didn't

think I was worth more than 5 days

There,  now you got your story.

As the cool breeze seeped through the window, I watched the ceiling fan take another turn.

Somewhere in the midst of dawn I turned to him and watched him sleep. We never slept this
far apart and as my foot brushed his, it was evident just how far apart we were.

I took up my usual spot as sidelined sous chef while he made us french toast
and told me stories as he chopped and flipped.

I pushed the remainder of breakfast from one side of the plate to the other.
He asked "Are you done....?"

I was. And so is this xanga...

I met him at the beginning, its only fitting that the end of us brings about the end of this.
A tumultuous love affair, I have grown leaps and bounds from that girl who sought an answer
to her questions. In the beds of many, I ended up with words and stories to fill pages.
Some stayed and filled my heart, others just passed the time.

I sat the other night and re-read through this sordid tale.
I cried at some, laughed at other and cringed at many of my tales but as I grew close to the end
I realize just how much I had changed, how far I had traveled.

But just like the french toast he made me that morning,
being the girl in between half of Manhattans sheets has stopped tasting good.

I'm still learning, looking, loving and on my way to something great.

Sometimes the pain hits so hard.
I don't think I actually realized how much I was hurt until it suddenly swept through me one day
I found myself in the middle of a cross walk with tears in my eyes.